Category: Daily Submission


This has been an incredible, interesting, as well as hard week.

The hard part was that my husband/Daddy felt that after three years of struggling to understand and retrain S, she has failed to meet his expectations and as of today has been released. Having her kneeling in front of us bawling as he took off her leather temporary collar, begging to be forgiven was really hard to deal with as I could feel her pain. I know this was the right thing for him to do as he was only becoming more and more resentful of their misunderstood relationship which began causing problems with our own relationship due to me trying to mediate as well as being the outlet for him to express his frustration. I think, had his relief method been more constructive, then I could have handled things a little differently, but even so. If a person isn’t compatible with another, the worst thing to do is try to force it, or fake it. Therefore this was the best decision.

Due to this situation, we got put into another situation of.. what to do now. As she is a part of the family. She needs guidance, and the three children attached to her are now also our kids and that is something that we don’t want to change. Not only because we have fallen in love with them, but also because we have taken them from a non constructive situation, to one that is now stable and constructive. In short, we will not hurt them. So, being that I have been doing it anyhow, I will continue to be her guidance. One day at a time.

The incredible and interesting thing is that I have been talking to my son either everyday or every other day and it has been amazing. At first I was really nervous about being open with how I live, but after talking to him and expressing that I don’t want there to be anything that is kept between us, a whole new world has opened up. I even had the BDSM discussion with him. That was awkward, but I didn’t want to shock him when he comes to visit. He has a natural Dominant tendency already and I rather guide him towards appropriate education than watch him flounder. He is a rather cocky cuss, but a part of me wonders if that is him puffing up in order to impress as a way to keep from being rejected. I will never reject him, or Kaitlyn. You love your children regardless of what they do, even if they fuck up, which happens. I sent him a phone which is on our account so that he will be able to call or text me anytime once he is out of the group home. I admit, I still have fears that his dad will do something to his phone when he goes to visit. But I hope not. My son says that he has changed a lot, and I do really hope so. I have moved on from that part of my life and I do hope the best for him.  Anyhow, he is really excited about coming to visit, and so are we. There are many people who have been waiting years to see him. I think we will throw him a party when he gets here.

I have been struggling with my own submission lately as more often than not, it seems like I have so many responsibilities to keep up with that I don’t have time to give that extra mile to Daddy and Master. But I came to realize today while going over things with S, that I can make time, as I do take pride in my submission. I know that there is so much to learn and I really do want to delve into that education so that I can be of better service as their submissive, and lovers. I love them both dearly and do not ever see my life without them. Both are very different and I love everything about them, even when they are being moody. I am grateful for every moment that I have with them. So I am glad for this awakening.

Until tomorrow. Goodnight from lil girl.

 

Busy, Busy, Busy.. It was good that we didn’t have the little ones until Christmas day because it was crazy. People, and puppies and presents oh my.

I was so excited as my Master met us on Friday just after noon and we went to High Priestess in Salem where I got my nipples and tongue pierced. I was going to get my hood pierced but evidently, my anatomy denied me.. too small. Which is fine, my tongue piercing will have its uses I’m sure.

For Christmas, I felt like the old granny giving much needed clothes and shoes, but they really needed it, and they are cool clothes and shoes :) They got a lot of toys too, but money was tight.  But I managed to make sure that everyone in our family received at least one present. I like anyone else realizes that Christmas is not about the presents, but family. Sure there are many reasons for different people, and I do agree that the commercialization of the holiday is sad, but we all make it the best day possible. Which we did.

We watched Lord of the Rings extended version trilogy, Christmas Vacation, and A Christmas Story. I made fudge, and the Christmas dinner then we all relaxed with the family.

Then the recovery from the holidays begins. What day is this? Oh right.. So we start with  Monday  which was non existent and banks aren’t open.. what’s with that?.. can you say zombie? Tuesday starting to come out of holiday shock, and then today.. back to my usual schedule. YAY. Even put most of the Christmas things away.. leaving out the tree in the livingroom for the party this Saturday.  Dogs got baths, as did Snuggles and Sephiroth, puppies are snuggled and cuddled, and more left overs..  Tonight has been relaxing as we watched some tv shows and am now finishing up watching Eurotrip. If you haven’t seen it, you should.

So that is a catch up from the my last post. I will be back on track with posting.

Goodnight from lil girl

I panicked when I woke up as I fought to restart my phone which for some reason had turned off during the night. Come to find out, it hadn’t plugged in all the way and therefore the battery had died. When I finally got it back on, I was late for my morning check in time by 10 minutes. I never like to disappoint Master, and it usually means that I may not hear back from him for awhile as punishment which kills me. Even worse… I really had to go pee. Now I will always double check the charging connection to my phone before going to bed.

I am finally permitted to go potty at 10 and am busy making sure the other girls are getting their chores done, then get to my own. The rest of the day goes on like normal which I am grateful for. Around 4 Daddy and I head out to go to Costco to pick up cat food, then we decide that we really have no need to rush, so we wander about Costco for a bit, then went to Lancaster Mall where I picked up the last of my Christmas presents. YAY!  I got Daddy a present early at Game Stop; game called Dead Island. Of course when we came home, he had to play it. Pretty creepy actually. He is really happy about it.

It is now 10:30 and I am ready to settle down and read. Goodnight from lil girl

Today was pretty crazy. Last night our Husky Kai went into labor, so we were all up and down throughout the night keeping an eye on her, and then on top of it had kids to take care of too. My schedule was all off, which is also hard on Master. I needed a nap and in fact slept from noon to 3.  I am still fighting a cold, but I am regaining my energy which is good.

My creative challenge for today was to take 10 words out of the dictionary, and without analyzing the definition, create definitions of my own and what they mean to me.  It was a tough challenge. But very enjoyable.  I worked upon this while our family watched the extended version of the Two Towers and then Return of the King.

At 9:30 our girl Kai delivered her last pup. Having five puppies in all. Here is a picture.

Now I relax with family and dream of tomorrow. Goodnight from lil girl